This is a shout out to my sister. Her babies...Bailey & Rocky
I think many people start out lovin on their pups and kitties before moving on to babies & kids. I know I did. Then you start aching for the real thing....it is an ache that can consume you. You HURT for your baby. Whether you are pregnant or adopting...you want to HOLD and KISS your baby. Unless you have felt that yearning , ache in your heart you cant really understand it. I felt it like crazy before I became pregnant with my son. I wanted a baby for years before my hubby did. Then when we decided to adopt, I would have walked thru broken glass if it meant my little Boo would be in my arms sooner. She was so far away but she was MINE. I needed to feel her. I wanted to be the one who held her, and loved on her. She was in awesome arms with her wonderful Foster mom, but I wanted to be the one to snuggle her and care for her. Finally the day came that she was in my arms forever...12 months of a long hard journey. Once you hold your baby , you do forget the pain of the journey a bit, the joy really does replace it in your heart :) Please dont think I dont understand the ache and the hurt. I do. I think having been thru this before, I am better this time at guarding my heart during this journey. I just know there are things I can not control. And it sucks.
3 comments:
You expressed it beatuifully-waiting sucks! But it is better to have our AGCI family to support each other. I can't imagine doing it without you guys.
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Catching up on your blog. You sure have a lot going on right now. I know how tempting that had to be to try to arrange a referral of one of those babies, but as one of my friends told me once - go with peace. I try to live by that. Sometimes going with what I feel peace about leads me into uncharted territory where I have no idea what God has planned, but He always works it out in the end.
May God give you His perfect peace & may it lead you straight to your precious little girl :-)
Hugs,
Beth
Well-said. I hope you find a way to make the time somehow pass quickly and hold your next baby in your arms soon!
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