Cookie in her new dress. I have to dress somebody
In "teenie tiny dresses" ;)
Boo getting some puppy love
I found this BRAND NEW moses basket on Craigsl*st. I only pd $15
and the lady was sweet, and gave me a handmade pillow, sheet & blanket when I told her we were adopting. The babies at Hannah's Hope, nap in Moses baskets, so I wanted one for Baby girl.
Boo showing her artistic side.
She LOVES to paint.
Roses from my hubby.
Boo came home forever in December 2006. One week before Christmas. She was 6 1/2 months old. I longed for her to be home thru both of our PGN kick outs, which are similar to not passing court in Ethiopia. Once she was home I realized GOD's timing was perfect. Everything fell into place. I am reminding myself of this. I pray for peace. I know GOD has a plan and it is perfect. I just miss my baby girl :) & want to hold her. Ok. No more whining. (for now :)
My sweet Boo is becoming so articulate. She talks and talks and it just amazes me how smart she is. Some things she says daily-
"Mama you happy?"
"Yes Boo, Mama happy."
"Baby happy too!" (too cute!!)
She tells me when she is tired too, "mama baby SO TIRED,go nite on your bed?"
Gotta love that!!
For the last few days she has shown some jealousy when Bug curls up in my lap. She will yell at her "You MEAN!" "MY MAMA" of course I tell her I am Bugs mommy too and I love them both. She asks, "You my Mama?" and squeezes me tight. it melts me. But deep down in a very scared place of my soul......I worry. What happens when she understands adoption? I want her to always know her story, but I worry that at some point , she may be hurt. Or feel bad that she wasn't always with us. I notice a change in her when we say goodnite to her Foster Mom, and her Birthmom each night. (their pics are in her room) she kinda closes off a bit....When I tell her Mommy Diana her foster mom took care of her in Guatemala, she say NO, You take care of me! Even at such a young age she knows that means she wasn't with me always.
I had pictures taken when I was 9 months pregnant with Bug. I loved being pregnant! I have one in our family room. It is a picture of my son, with his hands on my tummy. Boo points to it and says,
"Peanut" , "mama" - where sissy? "
I tell her Sissy was in mama's tummy.
"Where me?"
Bug said, "you weren't born yet , you were still in Guatemala " (well sorta..)
Boo became very sad , and hugged me tight saying -
"No you my Mama, I stay here!" I felt bad for her. I said to her
"Boo you are right here (pointing to the picture) in Mama's heart"
She got the biggest smile on her face!! Now she point to my heart and says
"me in your heart" Yes Baby.
I want to always be her Mama. I hate to think she would be sad that she didn't come from my tummy. ..because it doesn't matter in the least :)
~Praying for news this week about our new court date. Its been 2 weeks since our last one.
3 comments:
I too look forward to when our boys will come home from Ethiopia and I wonder what I will say when they ask. Will they be happy to have me as a mom when they are old enough to understand what adoption means.
In my heart of hearts I know they will for I too was adopted and I know that I can help them with that process. I don't look forward to that day yet but I am looking forward to being able to hold them!
Ahhh, so sweet. LOVED your conversation and she is just the smartest little girl ever. Hoping to hear soon for the court date.
so I read this post a while ago and have been meaning to write you a little note about it and am just now sitting down at the computer. lol :)
But I wanted to tell you that your thoughts on Boo and her adoption made me think of my best friend Annie. She was adopted from Korea when she was 14 months old. A few years ago in college she wrote a essay on adoption and who her parents are. She made it clear that she knew who her real parents are and she thanks God every day that her birth mom had the guts to give her up for adoption. She too has a pic of her foster mother and they get it out every year on her coming home date and thank her for taking such good care of her. Anyways...what you are doing with Boo so much reminded me of Annie and her family I just had to tell you about it. Boo might not get it just yet but she will.
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